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I feel so lost, so confused, so shitty...

I haven't felt like this in years. and it's so scary. so fucking scary. I don't know what to do. I really don't. I've never been so scared of reality in my entire life.

I don't know what I want. I don't know where I'm headed.
I don't know who I am. I fucking hate myself. Maybe I am a monster, after all...